Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Kara vs. frozen yogurt

Frozen yogurt wins.
:(
To be fair, when I first ate it, I didn't look at the label. Had I looked, I probably wouldn't have put it in my mouth to begin with. It was full of high fructose corn syrup and other terrible and addictive stuff. But, I dove in without checking the waters.
It was meant to be a semi-healthy dessert for our Father's Day dinner, and then the leftovers stayed in my freezer and kept calling my name. It wasn't until after my 3rd bowl or so that it occurred to me to check the label.
Once I checked, I immediately knew why I've had the blahs and why I've been wanting to eat everything in sight, but did that motivate me to trash the rest of the yogurt? Heck no! It was just too tasty!
Coincidentally, I also started reading the emotional eating chapter of "You on a Diet" this week. I learned a strategy where I'm supposed to rate my hunger level every time I'm tempted to eat. Then I'm supposed to consciously decide whether I'm truly eating for hunger or, rather, for emotional reasons. Finally, I choose to eat or not to eat.
So . . . . at one point when I was getting ready to open that freezer door, I remembered the strategy. I evaluated my hunger level and decided I wasn't truly hungry. I really just wanted the yogurt because I was a little bored and because the memory of the yummy yogurt was nagging me. But, when it came to making the choice -- I still opened that freezer door and ate a big serving of yogurt. D'oh! Frozen yogurt is just too powerful!
So, now I'm kind of in a bad place, where I'm craving all kinds of terrible foods, I'm feeling guilty and ashamed for my poor food choices, and part of me would love to just call it quits and pig out.
Well, the yogurt is finally gone, and I am not calling it quits. I do want to get healthy, and I do want to model healthy choices for my children. No one said it would be easy. I've learned an important lesson about label reading. Just because something is supposed to be healthier, doesn't mean it is healthy enough.
It sucks that I'm going to have to go through a difficult several days while my body detoxifies again, but if I keep my eye on the goal and remember how good I was feeling when I was eating right, I know I can do it.

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